ahh!!
My parents are going to make me go crazy!! When I got grounded, it was for doing something that I wasn't supposed to do, and going behind their backs to do it. Now, I ASK them if my FRIEND, Rocky, can come watch a movie with us, ya know, a good family activity, and they say no. Just that, no! I can understand why they say no, but it bugs me!! They say: "he might think this", or "he might think that", when in reality, he WON'T!! Grr!!

So, my big plans for tonight....uhh....are no longer possible. No watching a movie outside, under the stars, with my bestest bud. Or anyone else fo that matter. Karen, and I were planning to do that again this week, but she's busy. :-( So is everyone else. And the person who isn't.....yeah, never mind......

Next week, I'm going to see if my parents will let me go to Tucson with Tonia, a girl I work with, then just stay the night at her house. We'll see about that one...

Well, my homework isn't going so well at the moment. I started, and I was going to do some online research, but do I get a good internet connection??? NNOOO!!!! It keeps disconnecting!! gggrrrr!!!
My term paper, I guess, is going to be about eating disorders. Maybe do a compare/contrast on anorexia, and bulimia. I don't know yet. So far, I think my classmates think I'm crazy. My papers have been about: drug use, the physical abuse of my sister, home birth/hospital birth, and now eating disorders. Maybe I should pick "lighter" subjects...hmm.....

I have to find a car!! I need one of my own, if I'm to stay sane. As it is, I have to borrow my mom's van, and it doesn't happen very much. Luckily, I don't actually have a life, so that helps out a bit. I work, I have my class, and sometimes do something with my friends. Ahh, but it could be worse. I could be going to school everyday, and working, and doing all kinds of other things. At least the bulk of my time away from home I get paid for. :-p

Tomorrow, I work from 10:30-3:30. I haven't figured out who I'm working for though....kind of sad, huh? One girl, Cary, asked me to work for her, and I said if she couldn't find someone else I would. Then, Alina called me, and asked if I would work the SAME shift for her. I told her about saying I'd work for Cary, and now maybe they can work something out between the two of them. All I know, is that I'm working. hmmph! I get Monday off though!! Benson's school gets out for Columbus day, so the other girls can work! AHH!! Wonderful!!

So then, since I'm not working, my mom and I are going to Tucson! I don't know how that'll go, considering our present situation, but the worst that will happen is that we won't talk that day! Might even be a relief. But, I think we'll be talking. :-( :-D

Since I can't talk to anyone right now, I'm writing things down here. Writing helps to clear ones mind, and clarify the thoughts, so I'm glad I can do that. I SHOULD start actually writing my term paper, but I really don't want to right now, so I'll just procrastinate as much as I can. I should be able to do that well tonight, I've been doing it all my life.

Well, I should stop writing I suppose. Sad huh? Another time...Heck! maybe even later tonight!



- posted by Rachel @ 8:59 PM